Category Archives: Three Hundred and Sixty Love Letters

Letter Two Hundred and One: Christmas Eve

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Two Hundred and One
Christmas Eve

I originally didn’t want to write this one, but I had a series of interesting dreams last night and now I’ve decided to take it easy and stay home for Christmas Eve and therefore am putting them down in the simplest fashion.

The first one was when we went somewhere, and there was a dude who chat you up with boring stuffs. You weren’t too interested but nonetheless listened attentively, but I went to talk with someone else.

The second one was when I found a new place to live, in Midsommarkrasen or somewhere, but I found out that the neighbours had a baby and in the apartment there was a cat, so I decided to move back to the dormitory.

The third one was when I was moving, and I ran into you. We talked a little.

The last one was when I was talking with my mum about Sweden, and that’s the end.

In these dreams you looked very young, like thirteen or fourteen, with two braids at the sides, and you wore very simple yet clean and elegant clothes. I believe dream is a projection of one’s image, and I guess I like to think you, or anyone I love, should be pure and innocent. It’s a tragedy that many lose themselves too early, too fast; this isn’t moral decay – rather, it is the manifold conveniences that have improved our lives that have also provided a fast way to sins.

Jiulin
Friday, 24 December 2010

Letter Two Hundred

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Two Hundred

Interesting, time and time again I decided not to write anything any longer, but the promise has been a sword lifted on my neck, forcing me to at least scribble through 360. I guess the main reason for my unwillingness is the fact none of your friends, close or far, is doing this, so much so that it’s become a distinguisher of this identity. On second thought, though, it merely says no one else feels the same for you as I do; besides, that identity, however dear you deem it to be, was only granted on a first-come-first-serve basis.

Power of the public is daunting. I first chose to post on my blog as a way to demonstrate my unequivocal heart; however, as time went on, despite the fact nobody appreciates such effort, it’s set a bar for me not to stop until I fulfilled my promise. It doesn’t contradict me because true love doesn’t want anything back; still, I am fully aware that posting these things on my blog and facebook leads to the direct consequence that many people who have seen these dislike me a lot. – Fortunately, I’ve reached 200, and I think this will be over somewhere next year, after which I’ll be able to socialize again.

I didn’t want to write this letter this year but intended to leave a new hundred to the new year, yet this is some old stuff yet again and nothing spectacular. Besides, I want to tell you that writing these impairs my analytical writing skills, so I’m not going to write any before taking my GMAT. Are you going to notice it?

Light came in at 8 a.m., and I find it extremely annoying. I hope we can have 20-hour nights forever.

Jiulin
Thursday, 23 December 2010

Letter One Hundred and Ninety-Nine: ???

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One Hundred and Ninety-Nine

I wanted to say you, but you’ve made me extremely sad today and I decide to leave it blank. Sagittarius is right now, and I feel lonely, worthless, and deserted….

I cannot understand why you do not reply to my text message, but this is just us. My original plan was to write one of this series a day so that the last one would be on Christmas Eve, but I just post them all today.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.

Jiulin
Saturday, 18 December 2010

Letter One Hundred and Ninety-Four: Frigg

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One Hundred and Ninety-Four
Frigg

Yesterday when I woke up the thickness of snow lying on my window surprised me in a favourable way; nonetheless, the aftermath leaves it less enjoyable to travel in town. I’ve found a computer game, Company of Heroes; I haven’t been playing any for a decade, but perhaps when the snow will block all the roads (as I live in the hilly area of Norra Djurgården) it can be a pastime when I’m not working. Speaking of working, there’re some very informative lectures by Paul Krugman on Youtube: One, Two, and Three. I guess you aren’t interested in economy, but in today’s world I think it’s necessary to know a little because almost everything is either linked to or directly driven by economic motives.

Anyway, Frigg, as you may well know, is Goddess of Maternity, or, roughly speaking, all Goddesses. She represents Cancer, one of the four cardinal signs, marking the beginning of summer. I’m guess we’re most open during this period, so I hope we can share this spirit even in other times. Frigg is perhaps the most well-known and powerful goddess, but I truly don’t care if you’re famous or not, successful or not; you are you, and that matters much more to me.

I don’t know what your preference is, though perhaps you prefer long days; personally, I really like the way the night lasts here in winter, because things get so quiet. It’s only a pity I don’t live in a good quarter of town with a park close-by; otherwise, I think we’d put a small dinner table by the window facing the park, light up two candles, and just sit there, eyes try meticulously to snatch the beauty of the snow lit by the dim streetlights, hands holding each other. You see, it takes something to do something; it takes much more not to do any, the simplest enjoyment once in a while.

Jiulin
Friday, 17 December 2010

Letter One Hundred and Eighty-Eight: Skaði
Letter One Hundred and Eighty-Nine: Sjöfn
Letter One Hundred and Ninety: Nerthus
Letter One Hundred and Ninety-One: Ôstarâ
Letter One Hundred and Ninety-Two: Iðunn
Letter One Hundred and Ninety-Three: Freyja

Letter One Hundred and Ninety-Three: Freyja

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One Hundred and Ninety-Three
Freyja

Hi, perhaps you haven’t read 192, Iðunn, which I wrote this morning.

My plan was to visit Diplomatstaden and then Ethnografiska, but the snowstorm dissuaded me of further freezing myself (my left hand was frozen last week in Djurgården). So instead I went to Åhléns and Hemköp for food.

Freyja is Goddess of Beauty and Love; you must know well how I’d wish for you, so I try not to be too repetitious. Freyja represents Gemini, a sign that’s known for versatility and extroversion. This is understandable because Gemini spans primarily in June, including the time we first met. It’s a time living things are at their liveliest and most vibrant, so this is also what I wish we’d be.

One thing I haven’t told you before, as I thought it wasn’t relevant, is that I always wanted to have a plantation in the countryside: It must be very cheerful to see the leaves grow out, the buds blossom, the fruits mature, and, when winter wind blows everything starts again. Then we can have a greenhouse, where we can keep some tropical flowers for ourselves. We’ll each take care of one half of it, so every month there’ll be a competition for which we’ll each select one most beautiful flower. And we’ll have a stream running throw the patch, and we’ll have a small lake where we can feed some beautiful birds, and we’ll be able to row in spring and ski in winter….

Perhaps the major reason I hadn’t told you about it before was I was afraid most likely that wouldn’t realise, that even though we can be together we possibly shan’t have the luxury. Nonetheless, for average city dwellers, as long as we share the green in our hearts we have the patch of our own, as long as we share the bond between us we have the stream running to and fro, and as long as we share true love we are in possession of the most spectacular plantation in the world, haven’t we?

Jiulin
Thursday, 16 December 2010

Letter One Hundred and Eighty-Eight: Skaði
Letter One Hundred and Eighty-Nine: Sjöfn
Letter One Hundred and Ninety: Nerthus
Letter One Hundred and Ninety-One: Ôstarâ
Letter One Hundred and Ninety-Two: Iðunn

Letter One Hundred and Ninety-Two: Iðunn

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One Hundred and Ninety-Two
Iðunn

One error I have to correct is that on Monday I was talking about Diplomatstaden, not Villastaden, where I’ve been to too frequently.

Iðunn is Goddess of Youth; I wish you’ll always have a heart of youthfulness. She represents Taurus, which is my zodiac. My Chinese sign is also bull, and I like it: foolish they may be, they’re strong and fearless.

Yesterday I watched Rabbit Hole, and Easy A. Personally, I find the former a little lacklustre. It certainly is me who cannot comprehend the feelings of parents’ for the simple reason I’m not a father, though I have to add that, no being American, I find the exaggeration of depression unnecessary: most people have their parents passed away before themselves; I don’t see eternal pain – is that so much difference with a 4-year-old boy? Maybe you’ll also find their position more understandable, but I have to say most likely I personally love my parents who’s brought me up for more than twenty years more than a boy of a couple of years. – This is not to say being there I wouldn’t feel painful inside, but I know destroying myself or you or anyone cannot bring anybody or anything back.

The latter is a solid recommendation, for which reason I’m not going to make any comment but to leave you the fun finding out how it unwinds.

Honestly, I’m a little depressed right now as I feel rather lonely. All my job applications have been rejected, and I frankly don’t see anyone really valuing me.

Jiulin
Thursday, 16 December 2010

Letter One Hundred and Eighty-Eight: Skaði
Letter One Hundred and Eighty-Nine: Sjöfn
Letter One Hundred and Ninety: Nerthus
Letter One Hundred and Ninety-One: Ôstarâ